Just two days ago, I embarked on my nightly walk around a path that I have grown to love. I have been doing these walks for a while because they are a way to disconnect and be with Jesus. I usually put on some worship music and just try to relax and move.
This night however, I felt so empty. I began to explore this feeling and seek Jesus on it. If I am being honest, I have been feeling this way for a while. Empty, anxious, not at peace.
I started to explore these feelings and realized they were ultimately stemming from a root of disconnectedness. I had not been connecting with my Savior in the weeks prior, and the negative effects were really beginning to show.
As the conversation with my heart and Jesus continued, He also revealed to me that I had been operating out of a greedy spirit. Yikes, if that doesn’t sound yucky, I don’t know what does.
So what is a greedy spirit? And how exactly have I been operating out of one?
A greedy spirit is a spirit who always wants more. A spirit that is not satisfied with what it already has been gifted with. This spirit can manifest in a variety of ways, and it is different and unique to each individual. For me, it was showing it’s ugly head in many ways. Some of these being: wanting more success at blogging, wanting more material things, wanting a better body, wanting more friends, wanting more income, etc.
See, the problem with a greedy spirit is it lies to us. It tells us that if we just get that one thing, we will finally arrive at true happiness. However, the truth is that there is no destination for happiness and if we live this way, we will live our entire lives missing all of the wonderful gifts around us.
Another thing a greedy spirit does is it leaves us feeling empty and anxious. The exact feelings I have been experiencing lately. That emptiness comes from always trying to chase after the illusion that happiness is just right around the corner…
The wonderful thing about the Holy Spirit is that if we allow Him, He will guide us into a solution for the emptiness we are feeling. On my walk, He began to reveal to me the solution for a greedy spirit.
A thankful spirit.
An intentional and mindful spirit that lives completely in the moment and is present and grateful for each and every gift.
I truly believe that this is Christ’s will for us: to live with a grateful heart always.
Here are some beautiful verses about thankfulness that I have been trying to meditate on recently.
“Giving thanks always and for everything to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,” Ephesians 5:20
“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.” James 1:17
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” Philippians 4:6-7
That verse from Philippians is my LIFE VERSE. It has truly transformed my life and healed me from anxiety. I got away from the thankful part recently though, and I am looking forward to letting it transform my heart once more.
Those are just a few of my favorite verses about thankfulness, but it is a theme that is recurrent throughout scripture! I believe that being truly thankful in all circumstances of life is the key to an abundant and happy life.
So today, I am thankful for so many things. I have only been awake for about two hours but I am thankful for:
1.) Legs that work to get me out of bed in the morning
2.) Hot coffee
3.) My mama who greets me when I come up the stairs
4.) My soft pup who cuddles with me while I wake up
5.) Slow mornings and time off from school
6.) GF donuts 🙂
7.) My gift of writing and the way my soul feels as my fingers hit the keyboard
8.) ALL OF YOU!
9.) All of the wonderful people in my life including all of my friends and my sweet boyfriend.
10.) I am just grateful for life today. For health and wellness. For the very breath in my lungs.
I encourage all of you to write out ten things you are grateful for today, and repeat each and every day. Live slowly and intentionally and don’t forget to take deep breaths. Thank Jesus for each and every blessing, because each and every gift indeed comes from Him.
Be blessed and loved!!