contending for the promise.


It’s that time of year again. The time for resolutions and vows to change. The time for everyone’s “to do” list to get a little longer and our gyms to get a little bit more crowded. The time for the “in with the new and out with the old” mentality.

New Year, new me sound familiar to anyone?

I am by no means bashing New Year’s resolutions. I truly believe each new year is a perfect time to make healthy changes in our lives. It can really be the “blank slate” we need to finally push us over the edge towards changing our lives for the better.

The other night,  I too was making my annual list of resolutions and expectantly writing them down in my journal. I too was vowing to spend a little more time in the gym and a little less time on social media. A little more money towards giving,  and a little less money on…makeup, clothes, etc. A little more time making healthy eating choices, and a little less time eating things that are not good for my body.

These are all very good resolutions that I do intend on implementing into my daily life in the coming year of 2016.

But as I was excitedly writing these down in my journal, the Lord stopped me dead in my tracks.

What about what I want for your life this year?

He interrupted my focus on resolutions for worldly gain and reminded me that He too has something to say about my life this year. How could I forget?

Humbled once more I stopped my crazed writing in my journal and paused to listen to His still, sweet, small voice whispering to my loud, anxious, busy soul.

Okay Lord, I want to hear what YOU want for my life this year. Show me, speak to me, guide me.

Open your Bible.

Clear as day, instructions for my human heart from a Divine Creator. I just love when He is direct with me.

So I did the old fashioned open to a “random” page in the bible and point my finger to a “random” verse on the page. Turns out, there is nothing random about this practice. Especially when the Sovereign Lord is quite frankly commanding you to open your bible. Sure enough, the book I opened to was one that I have truthfully NEVER read in my whole Christian walk. Like I said, there is surely nothing random about this.

I opened my bible and pointed right to the verse Habakkuk 1:5:

“Look at the nations and watch-and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.” 

My heart leapt with joy and tears filled my eyes. Mainly because of God’s insane grace. Here I was resolving for worldly gain in the New Year and He had grace enough to gently remind me of the real Promises for 2016. His Promises. 

To be honest, there are so many BIG dreams in my heart for this coming year and for my life as a whole. I’ve felt them burning strong in my soul for a long time. Brewing a fire that has long remained contained for fear of what would happen if I let it go wild. And until this gracious moment with the Lord the other night, I always let doubt and insecurity creep in to my heart. Lies.

Lies that I am not a good enough writer to write a book for the Lord.

Lies that I am too shy and quiet to be a speaker for the Lord.

Lies that certain people in my life are just “too far gone” to be Saved.

Lies that certain areas of my life are just dead, never to be revived again.

Lies that I am insignificant.

Lies that I am just too small to make a difference for His kingdom.

Lies that I will never get to be a nurse.

Lies about my worth. Lies about my relationship.

All of the lies that have kept me from walking fully into the life God has called me to up until this point.

But My God, My all knowing Father, my gracious and insanely loving Creator.

He knows this about me. He sees my insecurities. He sees the darkest corners of my heart that I try to hide from the world. He sees Satan trying to steal my joy, my peace, and my confidence day in and day out. And it makes Him jealous. It makes Him protective. It makes Him FIGHT for my heart.

He knows the plans He has for my life. And those plans are so great, He will not let Satan steal them from me any longer.

So in His sovereign and gracious nature, He knew He had to get through to me somehow.

And in the moment I needed it most He gave me a life verse.

A verse to cling to this year, and for many years to come.

A verse showing His true heart towards me, His Father’s heart, His heart to bless me and spoil me and lavish me with His love. His heart to make my dreams happen. His desire to give me the DESIRES of my heart. His promise to strengthen me and give me enough grace to become the world changer He has called me to be.

“Look at the nations and watch-and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told.”




Ever since that night, I have pasted this verse everywhere so that I can see it each and every day at all hours of the day.

Ever since that glorious night, when the King enthralled me with His faithfulness.

Ever since that night, when the evil one comes to kill, steal, and destroy my dreams, visions, and desires. When he comes to kill my drive and tell me that I will never be good enough. When he comes to steal my joy and lie to my heart that there is nothing good for me in this life. When he comes to destroy my visions of being a nurse, an author, a speaker, a mother, a wife.

I can finally put my foot down and say, NO MORE SATAN.

You may say I am not good enough, but MY GOD says I am MORE than enough.

You may say I can’t write well enough, but MY GOD says I have been given a beautiful gift.

You may say that no one would ever listen to me as a speaker, but MY GOD says I have been given HIS VOICE.

Nothing is going to stand between me and the promises for my life this year because MY GOD told me that He is going to do more than I could ever imagine.

That I am going to WATCH AND BE AMAZED this year.

I am going to be UTTERLY AMAZED.

This, MY GOD has promised. And I am in the boxing ring. I am in full fight mode.

This year, you can find me CONTENDING for THE PROMISE. 

Praise. Him.












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